Hey Sisyphus2 ~
I can really relate to your story. I spent quite a few years married to a guy who had kind of "given up" on life. He decided he didn't want to do anything anymore but smoke pot and play his guitar. We had four kids together and we were broke. I spent quite a long period of time trying to "help" him. The more I tried to "help" and take care of him, the worse he treated me and the worse I felt. I was consumed with resentment that left me utterly depressed. It seemed hopeless for sure.
Thing is, all those years of "helping" him, I should have been taking care of myself.
It's been said already, start thinking about yourself. Where do you want to be in 5 years? Start going there, if hubby wants to follow, he will, if he doesn't, then you will have to say your goodbyes. It may sound painful, the idea of separating from him, but is it any less painful then what you are going through now?
Good luck!
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