[rbwrb]

I've been having an interesting experience with intention/manifestation for some time. Part of me would like very much to have an emotional/romantic relationship - I WANT to wholeheartedly want a relationship, but part of me is entirely resistant to the whole idea.

I've been trying to figure out how I really feel about that for many months and I'm still not certain. I've been consciously intending to manifest a relationship anyway, kind of working on the basis that if I actually met someone I cared for that would settle the matter, but I'm finding out it doesn't work that way. What I keep manifesting are circumstances that are a perfect reflection my feelings: I keep finding myself in situations where there's lots of mutual attraction but for one reason or another any real relationship would be impossible. It's kind of amazing how perfectly it mirrors what's really going on in my mind.

I suppose what I need to do is get really clear on what I do want. Maybe I need to try intending to be clear about what I'm intending. :-) Actually I just wish one attitude or the other would "win", so I'd either actually unreservedly want a relationship or be perfectly happy remaining solo. Does all that ring a bell with anyone here? Has anyone had that experience, and if so, have you found a way to get some clarity on what you really do want?