sadavis00, you'll be amazed, how different the mental backstage of speaking can be. For example, when I speak, I have plenty of time to compose my phrases, because my internal time is very fast compared to the external. I do speak slowly and tend not to speak spontaneously. And when I'm giving a speach, it becomes even more complicated. In addition to speaking, I usually pay a lot of attention to the feedback from the audience. I notice who nods, who doesn't, who lost attention, who is shaking their head, boy, sometimes I watch the rhythm of breathing of everyone in the audience to match it with the rhythm of my presentation. Once you become aware of all these mental weels and cogs in your head, you stop making conclusions about what does one's behavior really mean.