First off, DayOne, I think I can sympathize. I've been there. Heck, sometimes I'm still like that. What I see are a lot of "shoulds" in your post. Your bound to feel like something's always wrong if you always think you should be doing or feeling something other than what you do. Try to let go of "shoulding" yourself for a while. Think a little about what you want and enjoy, not what you should do.
Maybe take a look at Steve's career series for some help with the job issue.
As I see it, your body and mind haven't adjusted to your new schedule. I have always found it more difficult to have a lot of free time. Then you start thinking and analyzing! For practical purposes, you could try making a list of some of the things you want done like laundry and straightening up and setting up what day and time you'll do them. As you cross things off your list, you might feel a little lighter and more motivated.
Beyond that, you can start to look at what your feelings are trying to tell you. do some inner work, maybe write a journal. You might surprise yourself with what you come across.
Best of luck to you! I hope I provided some help and I look forward to other responses as well to help me out!  |