First of all, Katie, welcome to the forums.
I gotta tell ya, I had to read your post a couple of times because something in there just seemed, well, odd...
Then I figured it out.
I thought you said that you had introduced him to saliva. Hunh..?
Oooohhh... salvia..! (drat... must get some sleep... can't read properly)
I know what you mean about having a lot of negativity in your life. I've experienced the same. But tomorrow's a new day and you can choose to react differently to it now.