[DayOne]

Hi all,

A few weeks ago I was working 7 days a week, I did this for several months and was exhausted. I couldn't wait until the time when I would be just studying and doing part time work, with loads of free time...

I'm there now, and still not enjoying it.

I only go to uni for a few hours on two days of the week. I work at the weekends. Which leaves 3 days a week completely empy, two days with just a bit of uni and two days of work.

But even so I dread those two days of work, I stress about having to go in, wishing it was monday again. I don't even HATE my job, its not great, but far from hell.

I also feel really out of control of my life. If my room isn't tidy, laundry isn't done, etc.

I just feel like I should be so happy, working a 6 hour uni week and approximately 15 hour weekend. I should feel that I have time and be organised. But instead I feel stressed, always looking ahead to the "next thing to worry about"...

I dunno. This is kind of rambling as this is kind of a stream of thoughts, but I'd be interested to hear what people think.

I think I probably need a schedule, and possibly a different job for the weekend. I just feel that I can't cope with ANY "job", whenever I *have* to do something I feel literally claustrophobic and get stressed. The only solution I can think of would be a job where i plan my own schedule.

Any thoughts?