[Kingston]

I had a dream tonight.

I was in a hall full of people and someone important was going to be there that everyone was really enthusiastic about. When I saw him, I recognized him as the Emperor from Star Wars, and I was the only one who seemed to see this. I did not fear him and things were allright, except that nobody recognized him. I started too tell people, but I just got blank stares.

I just decided I need to experience more of love polarity before I make a final decision. I have been fear-polarized for 9 month now, and I experienced the benefits of clarity and intuition, but now to I am held back by doubts. I polarized with fear because I had a talent for it, but now I see that that is not the best way to decide. I need more inside out experience from the opposite perspective to make an informed and final decision. I have never manifested anything substantial from Love, and I must know what it is like. I have spent weeks in doubt now, so my intentional energy is close to neutral. The only thing I have manifested the last few weeks is pages and pages of journaling… Now I need to take some action.

The theme of the dream is the “Emperor has no cloths” and hidden truth. Something I thought to be good turned out bad. But the Emperor is also the ultimate fear based role model according to Steve. This dream might be a foreshadowing of my polarity reversal today. Interestingly I only remembered this dream fragment after I decided to shift.

I will do a 9 month trial based in Love and evaluate. With experience from both sides I can make a clearer commitment to either polarity.

Feedback and advise is greatly appreciated.

Love, for the first time..