First love is hard, at least it was for me and probably is for a lot of people. It's an amazing and horrifying experience, in my opinion. Haha, not most people would categorize love as horrifying, but it really is when you've hit your lowest point.
Before I met my first love, I was also doing rather well. I was extremely emotionally well-balanced, just sort of coasting along through life. I met this girl and everything changed, my perception of people in general changed. When I met her, it was like she was this enchanting creature that opened up all sorts of possiblities. It's really hard to lose something like that.
I probably did not respond in the healthiest way. I began to block out my pain with anger and resentment, using that to force myself to get "back on track."
Here's my advice, FORCE yourself not to think about her. I know it's hard, I've been there crying my eyes out unable to do anything because of the emotional pain, but eventually, you will "get used to it." After you get used to being hurt, it's more like an inward emotional pang, but then you just push yourself to focus on something else, something that moves you towards your current goals.  |