 LOA aftermath
So you spend your life in a fog not realizing how much power you have. I started PD in another format maybe a year ago, it led me here, and everything I know is just falling away. It's because it no longer resonates with who I am anymore, I so get that. I am making big changes. But I look around all that I have created in 30 years and I'm pretty mad. I used to be mad at the world, or other people, and felt a victim.... I can't do that anymore. So I guess I'm just mad at ME for letting my life get so damn screwy. With all the good vibes I've been creating, I didn't realize the rage that was going to come out of it.... there's a lot of anger in me. And it actually feels good to be mad. I go from feeling very positive about where my life is headed to absolutely furious that I've allowed my life to just be created by default. Who knows how long I would have lived in the fog.
I know I'm going through a major transition, but damn. I can't be mad at myself, can't be mad at others... but all I want to do is blast old cure songs and break stuff.
We talked about this in another thread, about your life getting all f'd up after taking the inner plunge. Please share with me---especially if you felt intense anger after starting this process.  |