I have been back! I've managed to avoid Janet but one of my other bosses talked to me and asked me about this college my mom said I was going to, and I had to lie and I got pretty embarrassed.
I wasn't a bad employee. Those were the only two things I did wrong the ENTIRE time I worked there. Getting drunk and not showing up for work is actually a somewhat heroic thing, in my opinion. If I had not ruined it by being a loser and being afraid to call and tell my boss why I wouldn't be coming back to Lowes Food straight up, then I'd feel satisfied.
I'm not exactly one to take to the whole, "You must do this everyday, even if you hate it or you're a bad person" mentality.
Falling asleep during my shift was the result of me having to work both day time and night time hours, obviously they didn't like it, I can understand that it's defnitely not good for business, but I think most people who were that tired would have fell asleep too.
I don't feel it would make me a lazy person because I hated my job and it doesn't bother me that I didn't put in as much effort as I could. I only did it for money, I got the money, it was for no form of validation. I learned how to cashier(which will come in handy after I get my own shop), I learned how to talk to people, anything useful I got from Lowes Food doesn't leave me when I'm no longer an employee.
If I had wanted a career with Lowes Food I might actually feel a little bit bad!
Yes, I know my fear has no reason to exist. I know the employees couldn't care less about me anymore. I know Janet will be happy if I'm a normal customer and buy her stupid crap so she can run off to her boss and get some kind of praise.
It still doesn't change the fact that I can't see her or anyone with the same body type or hair without getting a little jolt of fear. Just thinking about her face kind of makes me scared...  |