I'm still trying to make sense of it. If IM is real, then obviously, we are attracting people into our lives for a reason. But you may not know that reason. The name I keep seeing, just doesn't look like it's going to happen. But I learned a lot about myself from the experience, and am making some changes in my life in light of the the types of things I was thinking of when she was around.
I really don't know what the deal is, why I keep seeing/ hearing her name. Trying to put the most positive spin on it.
I know that I am different now, after the fact, than I was before. So I can't help but grow from it. Seeing the name of someone who doesn't seem to want to be with me, doesn't help though. And it may be unhealthy to read more into it.
Maybe we have several soul mates in our lives. We attract people into our lives for a reason, but that doesn't mean the reason is to be together forever. In my past I can see that when I felt bad about myself, I attracted women who I felt like I had known forever, there was an instant "knowing"---and they felt bad about themselves too. "Birds of a feather". I do believe we came into each others lives for some reason. But I wouldn't want to go back and "start over" with them, because I've changed.
Kind of going on and on here. I think what I said was true, in addition to the not very reassuring idea that the name may be popping up for the simple fact that you are expecting to see it everywhere, might as well be the word "cantelope".  |