@Bruce: I found your post interesting and I now understand the subtle difference you mentioned between "draining" and "drawing me in". It's hard to explain, but I totally know what you mean. It's almost like I'm "leading", kind of like an attorney might "lead" a witness or a jury towards seeing things a certain way. I'll definitely give this distinction some thought.
@John Prophet: I went through like a month of discussions trying to figure out if I'm a "darkworker" or a "lightworker" when Steve first came out with the concepts and I have absolutely no problem admitting that I act like a darkworker sometimes and I am proud of it. I do also act like a lightworker sometimes and I am proud of that too.
In fact, I got so confused about the whole concept that after much discussions I realized that who I am doesn't fit into either of Steve's definitions but does fit into something just slightly different which I wrote about and illustrated on my old blog. You can find it here:
SelfWorkers, WorldWorkers and Polarizing with Love or Fear | Self Help Wisdom . com
I don't call the two paths "Lightworker" and "Darkworker". I call them SELFWorker and WORLDWorker. The big difference in my thinking is that the true path towards enlightenment is a balance of doing both SELFWorking and WORLDWorking, essentially expressing LOVE towards both.
In my diagrams, what Steve describes as a "Lightworker" I would classify as "WORLDWorker Syndrome" which I don't believe is healthy. I do not believe it is enlightening to only care about the world and not yourself, nor do I believe it is enlightening to only care about yourself and not the world.
The reason that I won't label myself a "Darkworker" under Steve's definition is because his "Darkworker" is my "SELFWorker Syndrome" and I don't suffer from that.
Under my definition, I believe that I am balanced between SELFWorker and WORLDWorker, although slightly more biased towards SELFWorker. I believe Steve is also balanced between the two paths although slightly biased towards WORLDWorking.
However, there is a BIG difference between being both with a "slight" bias and having "SELFWorker Syndrome" or "WORLDWorker Syndrome".