Last time I was at the neurologist's with my boyfriend I burst out crying when the topic of death came up. I think people cry about death because when it's someone else, part of your life is crafted with that person, and who you are comes out in what you do and how you do it. I will probably outlive Slamhot, and a small part of my heart hurts knowing that. That means that loving, wonderful part of me will have to find some other way of generating all those great qualities that Slamhot let me express. And that also means I'll get no more direct expressions of his love, and being without that is profoundly sad to me. So, yeah, that's why the thought alone makes me cry.
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<jamariquay> I never understood the need for people to kill for their religion. Then I remembered, "Wait. If Optimus Prime tells me to gack someone, that ****er's going down." |