[Bliss Sage]

Originally Posted by Parthon

I could be wrong, but the very experience of getting dazed and unconscious when your body took over, I'm thinking your body wanted him to continue but knew that you were just going to say no, so it got you out of the way, unsuccessfully thankfully.

Omg, why did I not ask for help with this issue before?? (well, I know why...) Yes! My body and part of me absolutely wanted him to keep going! I don't know if that is the reason for my dazed unconscious feeling, but I certainly have to consider it!

And if this is true...I wonder where that leaves me...?

I'm thinking you need to get back in touch with your own body, and start to appreciate and experience it more. You are not your body, but you have a body, and a body is one of the greatest instruments on the planet. There's not much a human body can't do.

Jim: I'm not really out of touch with my body per se, in other contexts, I did gymnastics since I was young, I do yoga, even belly dancing (which I really like), but as far as men are concerned - they don't need to know any of that, because they are already overzealous, so I downplay the physical - I try to.

I absolutely, definitely want the man I love to love my body too and it's important to me, but 1. I'm not overly concerned that he won't like my body and 2. that is not where the problem is - it isn't and hasn't ever really been a problem to find men attracted to my body and want sex, but to love me, to know me and understand me, this is where the problem is, so I deliberately want to and do downplay the physical.

Only the guys that are bold enough to reach through to you, or those where you are bold enough to reach out to them will you meet. Unfortunately the first set of guys tend to be the sex crazed idiots you want to avoid and the latter are the self-pitying fools that try and turn everything into a drama.

Wow, you just described every guy who has ever been interested in me. The latter kind is the kind I had this incident with.

Well, note that I'm not looking, but where are the ones who don't fall into those categories? There are other kinds, right?

The latter kinds, they always play on my sympathy and always say things to make me feel guilty, blame me for things, especially the guy I had this incident with. He goes into sulking for nothing. Then they also say things that make me want to comfort them or hold them, help them...to make them feel better. Yet nothing makes them feel better, what I give or do is never enough.

Listen to your spirit, and not your mind or body, and you'll be led to the one you were meant to be with.

You asked what I'm waiting for - well, I'm waiting for the one I love who I believe I'm meant to be with (someone I know now)...or... I don't really know at all what I'm waiting for...