It almost sounds like you're from India or Pakistan...
Jekyll and Hyde is something you are going to find in any sexual being - it is natural. It happened to you in your 'daze', didn't it? Appreciate the men that find you attractive and want to have sex with you, love the man that wants to have sex with you AND walk with you through life.
As for your 'daze', that is the hormone cocktail your brain releases into your nervous system - it's what keeps the human race alive sweetheart.
Testosterone stimulates the sex drive of both men and women, men have higher levels of it in their bodies than do women - for a good reason. The evolutionary and biological reasons should be evident, but, I do hope if you think about it, you may have some valuable insights into the sexuality of men.
Only thing you can do about the situation now (since it happened already) is to lighten up about it. Did it feel good? Atleast you now know what to look forward to in marriage, eh? No reason to be hard on yourself - we were made to enjoy this, not endure it.
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