First, welcome to the boards.
Competition in and of itself - that is, being better than anyone else or "beating the other guy" - is often destructive. That's probably why it's generating feelings of guilt.
But competition, when considered in context of driving creativity and improving the lot of everyone, can be a positive force.
One of the fundamental problems I have with educational systems is the "rugged individualist" patterns that the system tends to honour. That is, you're on your own, don't ask for help from anyone because that's considered cheating.
In the world beyond the classroom, however, almost every great endeavour is done with the input and using the talents of others. We can't all be masters of every domain, but we can use the talents of others to drive learning and a positive agenda.
So you might want to consider re-framing your new competitive spirit, so it's not just for the benefit of yourself but for the benefit of those around you as well.
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