Hi Purple,
You are so lucky to be such an insightful, intelligent and aware person at your age! Don't lose that to superficial pressures of trying to conform. I was just like you and lost 20 years of my life trying to conform. But the sad part is, that as a child, I was quite curious, creative, and interested in the world around me.
I remember, at 7, being very philisophical: my twin and I would ask questions like, 'What is it like (existentially) to be you and not me?'. That was easy since we were twins, but people just thought we were weird. I look back now and realise that we weren't weird, we were just us, and we stiffled that curousity for the next 3 decades.
So, keep reading these boards and don't go out of your way to conform. I mean be pleasant but do not hang out with poeple who you feel don't or never will 'get' you. Please don't waste your time.
It's ok to be different, everyone is anyway.
E
