i'm a big girl. i'm 5'10" and a size 14-18 depending on the cut of the clothes. i also think i am very attractive and others (both men and women) seem to agree with me for the most part.
when i was younger, i always thought i was pretty, but i figured no one else would since i'm not a skinny minnie. but as i've gotten older (i'm 34 now), i've just gotten better and better looking. an old college friend i havent seen in ages confirmed that he thought so, too.
how is that possible? self-care and acceptance. i know how to dress now, i feel great about how i look, and i guess people are scared to make fat chick remarks to me. i might sit on them!
all joking aside, there are all kinds of beauties in the world. some are tall and thin, some are short and curvy, some are tall and curvy (like me!), some are 75 years old, some are 20. see the beauty in others, and it will be easier to see it in yourself. and when you see it in yourself, others will see it, too. kinda cool how that works.
does all of this mean that i never feel the desire to lose weight or get stronger? of course not. i value and adhere to a healthy diet for the most part. but sometimes i really want chocolate cake more than i care about seeing a number on the scale go down. it's all a matter of priorities.
of course if i had high blood pressure or diabetes, my weight would be more of a concern to me. but i'm perfectly healthy. i'm just a big girl!
being larger is not all horrific lane bryant shopping trips and guilty late night ben and jerry's binges -- there are some benefits: ******** rarely hit on me! and at work, people take me a lot more seriously than they do my more petite colleagues.
then there's the whole "the bigger the cushion the sweeter the pushin" thing ...
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