phoenixmama,
I agree with Steve's comment above. Be patient and make purpose your priority.
I've been working full time as a Mechanical Engineer for 6 years now. In the past 6 months I've been going through an awesome shift. After reading a lot of pd books and doing a lot of exercises I finally
found a purpose that resonates with me.
To keep my attention focused on my purpose I carry a laminated card with my purpose written on it. I've been carrying the card for about 4 months.
The card says:
"PURPOSE: My purpose is to educate and inspire others to achieve their own dreams and desires by learning from example."
I also have this excerpt written on the back of the card:
"I am more than I appear to be, all the strength and power of the Universe rests inside me."
This card has literally transformed my thinking and my way of being. Decision making has been really easy for me - all I do is check to see if the project/idea is in alignment with my purpose, if not I move on.
I hope this provides some insight.
Stephen Martile — Personal Development Made Simple