That's an interesting question. I suppose I used to. But I've seen people who get stuff they didn't earn, and people who earned stuff not get what they should have earned.
Where MY feeling of deserving came from is only a few days old, lol. I was raised religious, thinking the devil was involved in everything, and at a young age when I was trying to figure out what I wanted from life I was told if I wasn't doing it for Jesus then it was the devil implanting the desire in me to lead me away from the Lord. Not a great message for a young kid.
So I spent many years, feeling completely guilty for living because I had the nerve to want certain things (mainly to write songs) but thinking I was going to hell if they weren't christian songs. Now that I don't believe in that anymore, I'm not afraid of hell, but I think the underlying feeling of guilt, shame have stayed with me. Now I realize we are all perfect manifestations of something. We may make mistakes, the wrong choices, but we all start out deserving a good life because we are in this life.
Always felt I was different from everyone else and that there was something wrong with me.
I've been doing PD for awhile now and have had a good chance to really face this crap.
Don't know if that answers your question, but it's a good opportunity for me to get that out of my system! Maybe I'm moving into the next stage now.
