Absvan: yes of course, you're right. But fact is that I have to earn money. So I have a clear choice: a) find out what my purpose is, and do something important and meaningful to make money, or b) just take some random, boring job based on my skills. As long as I'm not absolutely forced to do b), I'll do a).
Sam, I don't think these other people envied my situation at all. They were just pleased by my positive
reaction to this situation, that's not the same. And yes you're right, it's a pretty bad situation. Actually it's even a f***ing crappy one. I'm not deluding myself, neither am I seeing it in a SR perspective, I'm not even intending anything. It's just that I hoped I would find my purpose and do something meaningful before the last cent is gone. I think that sometimes it pays off to take a risk to get the best of what you want
(edit: and yes, honestly, I really find it funny to be in such a crappy situation. That's something I'll remember later and smile. Even if I land on the street, I don't think I'll die...)
Nevermind, I've found it now, I think, even though I still have difficulties formulating it.
Lisa, the curvy clothes, uh, hm.. I'm really bad at drawing. I have them in my mind, but on paper it just doesn't want to look like I imagine it.
And yes, there are lots and lots of people who feel insecure in front of a computer. There are computer classes everywhere they can take, but the problem is that when they're back home, and on their computer there is a slightly different OS, or they forgot something, or just because they're left alone again without the teacher, they feel insecure again. So my job would be to coach them at their home, on their own computer, till they feel comfortable with it.
I think I can listen to them and be empathic enough to know how they feel and take care that they don't get overwhelmed. Seven years ago I had never used a computer in my life, I didn't even know what a URL is, and I had to program java servlets. So I
know how you feel when you sit there and don't understand anything
Love to you all.