Rose, when you made that other thread (
Happily Unemployed) saying you were happy that you had no job and broke up your studies, i thought about making a post asking about what you planned to do, how were you going to survive and stuff, but i didnt do anything to not disencourage you. Because someone that wasn't much into PD would think you situation is a pretty bad one, although it appears that in these forums many people envied your situation when you made that other thread.
Maybe, just maybe (because i really can't know, i only got my opinion and paradigm) you have been deluding yourself and filling your mind with so much PD/SR/IM stuff that you lost a bit of the sight of reality. As you said, your savings are going away, and what are you going to do after they've went away? Attract more money using IM? I really hope it works for you.