It doesn't take any courage to commit suicide.
I would recommend a therapist who may refer you to a psychiatrist, maybe not.
I have had great success with my current therapist through just talking.
I do know that when one is depressed, it chemically changes the brain, the dopamine and serotonin levels and in conjunction with therapy medicine can be of aid.
In my experience, now that I'm sober 7 months and not medicating with shopping and pulling hair, I, too feel depressed. I feel feelings, now, too, some of them are not comfortable.
Sometimes I'm up ("Yay!I cooked something, yay!Life is great!I love everybody!")
Other times, I'm down . . ("I don't want to get out of bed. What's the point? So I can clean?I'm going back to sleep.")
But, that's part of my recovery. At some point, I may need meds.
Sometimes, at the end of a long day, I force myself to name some blessings, some "positives."
Even if it's I paid my bill on time and the lady who took my payment was polite.
Or, I'm thankful for how it felt to wish that person at the store a Happy Thanksgiving.
Kat
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