Thanks for all of you first! Thanks for all your reply. I did not sleep so well and thats why i have been sleeping until now today. I just read your messages. No matter what point you hold, I am full of gratitude for all of you.
He wrote me two more emails one hour ago. One email but from two email addresses.
Hi ＊＊＊
This is not how I had pictured today three years ago....three years ago everything was happiness...Three years ago today, we went to Hangzhou, and I remember everything that happened. Everything from the snake that scared you to the bubbles you blew by the lake. I am so sorry that things did not work out between us, I truly am but we tried a long time and it did not work. But I still wish you all the best, and I am still your friend, and a person who cares deeply for you. I hope that you eventually will be able to accept me as your friend again.
Best,
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He will never get it. He can never got it that if i am so in love with hiim, how can we ever be friends again. He is just hurting me again and again by reminding me of all these.
On the other hand, he is giving me false hope on trying again, since he still cares. If he still cares, I will always think that there is a chance. I will always think that I should give it a last try. I hate it. He just makes me cry again and again.
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