I experienced very much the same in the past. And I took it as signs when I started out myself, like the whole universe was pointing to something, but really after a while I thought that it just seemed to be pointing to myself, like I was seeing the echo of myself everywhere.
I can't say I like that notion much, it feels like I'm just running into myself all the time. And what's the good of that? It reminds me of a dream I had a long time ago, where I'd prayed to be able to see reality with God's eyes, and suddenly saw that all was me, that all other people and all there is was just me, and that I created them to be many instead of being one, like a kid who talks to its own hand, imagining it's a creature apart from it, you know like a finger puppet, and in my dream I freaked out and wanted to get back into my limited human perspective and I remember waking up and being overjoyed to be just human and not God and to be one of many individuals, to be separate.
LoA and IM just seems to skim the top of things somehow, they're fun to use but the underlying truth when ever it seeps into my awareness frightens some part of me, and I believe it's my ego, but the fear is pretty real. It's like IM is fine as long as it serves my human desires, my ego purposes, it's okay to manifest stuff I like on a limited basis.
But there was a time when I moved so much in tune that the reality around was like one song, like the whole universe was a living responsive thing and not solid but liquid or even less than liquid. And I was scared to death, cause everything around seemed to resonate to my being, and I felt a huge responsibility crushing down on me, and I didn't know what to do and was scared to make one little step at all. I just wanted to hide away in a white room with no contact to the world at all, and never ever move again, to make sure I didn't do wrong and to stay away from this feeling of the whole universe resonating to my existence. And I believe it was really my ego and resistance I ran into at that point full force.
But if all is well, if all is as it's supposed to be, isn't the ego then the loyal watchdog of the reality created? To keep up the self-induced illusion? Alan Watts said existence is a joyful game, the Hindu Gods represent the same principle. If the fact that all is one would become general awareness, the illusion would end and that joyous game would end like a Hide and seek game being over. God created the illusion of separatedness like he created all else there is, and then it must have been him to put the ego there as well for a purpose, and to me that purpose was the game itself which depended on the illusion of seperatedness.
Now I feel I can't but move in the direction laid out, I'm moving into this awareness whether I like it or not, shying away from hurdles like a horse and then coming back to them. It's like a growth process I dont think I could fight like the guy in the movie who chose to stay small. And the world as I see it is moving from separatedness to Unity on all levels, and yet all that there is depends on duality, on poles, on the attachment and forces that form between separate entities.
I know I'm rambling but the movement to unity as it shows in the beliefs underlying LoA and IM actually feels like a return trip home to the source, like creation was packing together and the game coming to a close. And since I do believe that God intended creation to be a joyous, fantastic experience I feel a bit sorry about that.
It probably might take a very long time for human standards for it all to come together again, and I guess the return trip home is supposed to be a joyous fantastic experience as well, and who knows we'll probably all reach the awareness of unity at some time before creation comes full circle, and it won't just be using IM and LoA but I wouldn't even put it past God that we'll be able to fully do things like telekinesis or these things as we near our source.
So it's not like we're supposed to break into misery about the world coming to a close, and I guess the best thing to go about it is to relax into the experience and let it be, but there it is, and I do wonder about it.