Hi all, yet another "What's my purpose"-Thread... I have a question.
Since I've broken up my studies I've been trying to find out what my purpose is. I knew it had something to do with expressing beautiful feelings like happiness, freedom, love, harmony, or lightheartedness, and also with helping people, but I couldn't define it more precisely. In these months I've learned a lot, and a lot happened in my life, but still no purpose in sight...
Yesterday night I was pretty frustrated and angry because of that, especially because my savings are melting at high speed and I don't want to get a meaningless job just to pay the bills... This morning, I suddenly remembered that in another post of mine, I wrote "That's exactly what I'd like to do, go through life and randomly give people some positive energy, make them smile and feel happy for a few moments..." In the same post, a few lines later, I said that I still haven't found my purpose. But this one sentence, isn't that a purpose??
I'd really like to do that. Just freely dance through life, or through the day, or through the city, like a little sun, and offer others a little bit of sunshine. I don't want to save them, or make them completely happy, neither do I want to change fundamentally their life or make them grow as persons. It's not about coaching or PD. It's more in some little details.
For instance, recently I met an old lady in the bus. I liked her, so I invited her to sit down near me. After five minutes she was giggling and whispering in my ear like a little girl. We had a nice time talking about what we had done that day, about dancing and men and about being old or young. When I had to leave the bus, she was disappointed. I wished her a wonderful evening and left with a last smile. I'll never see her again, probably, but I'll never forget these twenty minutes with her, they made me very happy. Maybe it also brightened up her day a bit. That's what I'd like to do. Just give people a bit of happiness and love, or give them a feeling of freedom, contamine them with my lightheartedness, make them smile, brighten up their day for a few moments.
OK, it's not a "great" purpose, like Steve's for instance, but even though that's not a very ambitious contribution, that's a contribution nonetheless, isn't it? I hadn't noticed, because it wasn't about saving the world... But this morning, while I was thinking about it, I had to cry a lot - and now I'm crying again. As I wrote in another thread, I love small, unimposant things, daily life details. There is so much beauty in small things too. So I can have a small purpose, can't I? Some people build huge monuments and paint the Mona Lisa... others paint a smiley with their finger on a steamy window glass. That's my part.
Now tell me, that's a general purpose, isn't it??
