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Honestly, I don't know what you should do. All I know is that you need to be with someone who is like you, who has the same sort of awareness of life that you do, and who understands that reality is infinite. I mean, a part of me wants to tell you to go to her, look her in the eyes, and tell her all that you know to try and make her see what you see, but that would just be naively sentimental and completely unrealistic, wouldn't it?
You need someone who's taken the red pill as well.
But people won't change unless they really want to.
Would she be willing to change for you?
Would you even want her to try? Or does the idea seem slightly unwholesome somehow?
I don't know, man. You and me are in the same boat, I feel. Maybe what you and your girlfriend had is as good as it gets for guys like us.
I just... I don't feel that you should expect the perfect relationship, you know? I don't think you should expect her to understand you perfectly, because it's pretty much impossible to do that for people like us because we're so inwardly focussed.
You have to ask yourself if the fact that she doesn't understand you is really all that you're making it out to be, because it seems that she is willing to try her hardest to try and understand you, and maybe that's enough, right?
PS. Just out of curiosity, is this the same girl that cheated on you?
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That's the thing, she hasn't taken the red pill and as far as I can tell, she doesn't want to. Her attempts at trying to understand feel forced, I want her to do it for herself, not for me. I feel like a girlfriend should be a partner in this search for meaning and truth. I don't want to have to pull her along by the arm when she doesn't really want to be exploring such things. I feel like girl 2 would make a good girlfriend, because she is as curious and inquisitive as I am and we have an intuitive bond which will help us stop each other from becoming lost. I think that's the only thing I want in a girlfriend. There have been times where I was feeling down or depressed because I was exploring a particular hell, and then I found it hard to return to a positive state of mind. Just talking to girl 2 about absolutely nothing pulled me out of it, because she reminded me of what I was by being what she was. It's hard to explain. Also, she happens to be physically attractive, kind hearted and compassionate, which is definitely a bonus.
And yeah, it's the same girl that cheated on me.