[wolfgang]

So I normally have a guys night out on tues but that was shifted to wed. I told my gf last night, since I came home early compared to the normal tues, that the guys are getting together wed. She didn't quite get it since I left a note this morning saying I'll be out with the guys tonight - and she called me at work and chewed my ear about it. Saying how she puts wed aside because it's the only night she and I can hang (bs, I'm around all weekend with her) but I was hanging tues evening.

It just pissed me off and makes me feel jailed. Something isn't right that we have to have issues about me changing a night. I maybe realize I'm not at the same level in the relationship with my gf that she is. Or she relies on my company too much. I have thought that am about to can this relationship, and move out (which I should have done a while ago). Instead I goof up because I'm not operating as my gf expects. Actually I don't feel like she is a gf. I feel I have left her but not changed the amount of time we spend together. There's a mismatch going on that is stressful. I've been hanging on with whatever excuse to not leave but we really aren't having the relationship of my dreams right now. And I am not going to be able to make her and I into what I want, I know this but haven't taken the step to move out and move on.

So, just tell me to leave her already so she and I can be spared this drama.