Although maybe it's a good thing you gave yourself a boost with pot and saw for yourself a new possibility in the realm of being connected and warm, I don't think it's a good idea to use any substance
in order to create a way of being. It's a good way to fool yourself into thinking you need the substance in order to generate being connected and warm.
It sounds like you're already fooling yourself in one way:
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Originally Posted by Diox  I just don't think that was the case. I was fully concious, mentally present, I could still read their bodylanguage, eye contact, .etc. I know rapport when I see it and well, I don't think marijuana alters your perception to that degree. |
I wish I had a dollar for every stoned or drunk person who operated under that same delusion. You think you are mentally present, and witty, and charming, and connected, and establishing rapport. People who are similarly substance deluded will love you and think you're a great guy, because you are giving them tacit agreement in the wasteland lifestyle. But unimpaired people will smile, nod and patronize you, and leave you thinking you really hit it off when in fact they're laughing at you, not with you. I don't think that's the kind of reputation you want to develop for yourself, since you sound like a person who is committed to personal development.
If I were you, I would use the experience you had as a signal of what's possible for you to generate completely your own, without relying on the pot. You can create being warm and connected without being stoned.