[TeeZee]

I have lived a pretty solitary life and have put a lot of effort into changing that in the last few years. I socialize a lot and go out by myself to meet new people all the time. I still find that my friendships are based on my effort. If I don't call, I don't hear from people. I recently went away for a week and not a single person called while I was away. I find this hurtful and makes me feel like I am doing something wrong or I am unlovable in some way.

This has haunted me my whole life, so I guess it's one of my "core issues", and leads to depression. Is it unreasonable to expect people to make effort to spend time with me? Constantly calling people to set things up makes me feel like some kind of outcast that people couldn't be bothered with. I lose interest in these one-sided relationships, so all this effort is wasted as another failed friendship goes on the heap.

I'd be interested in peoples comments. I have done work on myself and don't have any obvious social problems or habits that people would avoid, so it's still kind of a mystery.