S...Dude,
You totally missed Megan's point and I think you prefer it that way.
You are stuck in your ego and in the template that you hold between raw reality and your perception. I think you enjoy using twisted logic to debunk the caring of others; to purposely not SEE what they offer you. What Megan said can lead you to fulfillment.
Reality doesn't give two hoots whether you are comfortable accepting help and advice or not. There is only one moment that holds power and that is now, and there is only one boat sailing on your ocean of existence -- and that is YOUR boat. If you don't want to paddle anymore that's fine, but in that case why carry on this discussion? You clearly have unfinished business in this LIFE.
You know what it is that you are afraid of; that hurts you -- own it, immerse yourself in it, and go down the timeline knowing that there are others that have had the courage to be there before you, and that are there for you now. There is nothing to be gained by jumping ship in the middle of the ocean; you'll only have to catch another.
Existence doesn't care about what you think your thoughts are. It only cares about what you DO, and what you are doing, is carrying on a conversation about the nature of reality. Existence won't put you into the void that you so desire until you have fulfilled what it deems that you value. There is no getting around it; you are here to find your answers.
For what it's worth to you,
John
John Rocheleau Canadian Artist