meeting a person for the FIRST time, my mind goes blank, as in I have no emotions. I smile and joke and try to test the social skills of the other person with small talk. I can be very forward. It's almost like a preset routine. If I don't get a chance to say something, and seem funny and interesting, only then do I start feeling bad. Probably because at the back of mind I think that the other person, like me, is judging me and testing out my social skills too.
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