Wow ProjectX, when reading through this thread
I didn't know whether to laugh out loud or feel sorry for the numerous numbers of caring posters that have replied to you.
You've systematically shot down every single one of their suggestions & told them each in their face why what they said would never work - and they just keep on coming!
I guess they didn't get it when you said that:
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Originally Posted by ProjectX  I feel as if there is no one who gets it, and never will and what I'm going through is too personal to visualize in words. No one to relate to. The only way to understand is go through what i go through. I feel like the black sheep in a world of white. |
But you've certainly proved yourself very capable of proving that belief to yourself and to others - they just really
really didn't get it.
I'm curious, ProjectX.
How long have you been using this pity train to get what you wanted? Whether it was love, sympathy or pity.
Maybe there's
nothing wrong with you at all. Maybe your life
really does suck. It's certainly possible. We all know real stories of real people who've had sucky lives and then turned them around...or not. Heck, some of us have lived through these stories first-hand! You've been telling us all these stories of how horrible your past has been...you haven't told us what specially has happened though, except blame everyone including your parents, your past self and the kitchen sink.
The one step I applaud you for is you deciding to go see a therapist. That's the first positive move you've made all along - and assuming you really do go see him, it's telling me you really want to change and you're able to take steps to do it. I pray he doesn't turn out to be a sissy who's going to be going along with your pity train but a person who knows just when to give someone a good swift kick in the butt.