 Sleepwalking Through Life: HELP!
Hi Everyone,
I wasn't sure where exactly I could post this so please let me know if it is in the wrong section. This is in response to Steve's ever so popular series on sleeping and waking up early. I was a very smart child growing up, very self disciplined, and had a natural sleep/wake cycle. It sounds weird, but before my teen years, I remember always feeling "in balance" and therefore always did well in school because I intended it and it manifested. When I was that age, I could even feel the energy flowing through me during activities as small as bingo games and raffles. (I almost won every time.)
I don't know what happened during my teen years exactly. Teenage angst, maybe? Either way, I saw my sleep schedule almost suddenly grow out of sync. Even though I'd get a full 8 hours of sleep (even more at times), I'd still come home dog tired and take a 3-4 hour nap to recharge. Then I would stay awake for maybe 2-3 hours, enough time to eat dinner and do a little homework, and off to bed again. This really took a toll on my school work during high school and to this day, I cannot describe how my life suddenly declined over something silly. I prayed that doctors had some answers for me but they almost always attributed my excessive tiredness it to my growth spurts, etc... But as this whole system began to erode, my life grew out of "balance" and now I'm 23 and STILL LOST.
My sleep quality and habits have not changed at all since and have taken an equally challenging role in my life as a college student. I just want to go back to that disciplined student I once was. I know that I'm very smart and can do whatever I want and have a huge impact on humanity like I had always wished. I've even been told this by several of my past teachers, especially the ones that were constantly perplexed by my school absences due to my lethargy/odd sleep schedule. I want to get that energetic feeling I once had that made me feel that everything I intended would manifest.
How do I piece my life back together and be completely balanced like I was over a decade ago- or is it just silly wanting to be what I was when I was merely a child? Any advice? I just don't know where to start. I'm working on the sleeping issue by experimenting with melatonin, B12, and light therapy, but it has been hard playing with my sleep schedule while in a student. I tried all the tips on Steve's articles, but I can't manage to maintain new habits using those methods....  |