[drkirby]

Someone mentioned this already but I think it's probably what could help you the most at this point.

Read Ask And It Is Given by Abraham-Hicks.

It is a very powerful book, with teachings that will inspire you to follow your bliss. If you allow yourself to open and listen to their message, you will find that your life will improve ten-fold what it is today somewhere down the line... as it has for me, and countless others.