Thanks, everyone, for your kind advise.
I don't have internet access at home anymore, and my computer at work is sort of "on display," so I was unable to reply in a timely fashion...
I have concluded that I will need to declare bankruptcy. As soon as possible.
My wife SEEMS to be clean so far, as evidenced by her behavioral changes, and relative emotional stability. However, being a recovered drug addict myself, I am well aware how skilled one can become at covering one's addiction. I remain healthily sceptical and keep myself attuned for signs of relapse.
My wife, understandably, is scared half to death. She faces significant jail time unless, by some miracle, the prosecutor softens and allows some alternative such as probation or immediate parole. The scariest part is that she is physically tiny. Inmates would likely abuse her in ways I don't want to think about.
The kids are with me. They are the one driving force that keeps me grounded through all of this. Paradoxically, while my responsibility for them is daunting - to the point that oten I wish I could run away and disappear, my responsibility for them is the very thing that keeps me from giving up!
Guardian Angel, you suggested I "energize myself." How, exactly, do I do that? I sure could use a large increase in my energy level!
Dr Martin Russell, I thank you. You are a voice of reason. I have a co-worker who is very good at looking at things realistically, but it's good to hear it from another source.
I'll update you all on my situation when more happens.
Again, thank you.
John
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