 Who am I really?
So here I am, sitting in my bed with my laptop, thinking about several events that occurred recently.
You see, I've recently stopped studying computer science at university. And I still find it to be a bit weird. All these years I believed studying computer science was my goal, but I soon discovered it was not what I was looking for.
I don't really know how to explain it, but I felt a little out of place, or something like that. I'm interested in programming, but that's it, I found out.
It's quite weird. All these years I thought I was determined to study computer science and make a living out of it afterwards. And then in a short time interval I discover it is not so. Quite a 'shock', so to speak.
So... Now I'm studying Chinese Medicine and Acupuncture. Yeah, something totally different.
I guess I have the 'interests-problem'. I've been developing interests in lots of things over the years, including computers, music, medicine, psychology, graphical design, etc.
Okay, so that's fun, right? Being broadly oriented and stuff. Well, it seems it does have a nasty side effect though. I can't seem to find my 'place', there where I fit in.
Who am I really? And what do I really want?
Even though I'm studying Chinese Medicine now (and it's quite interesting!), I still don't really know who I am (and who I want to be) and what I really want.
I can't just sit here and do nothing though, I want to develop myself! However, I can't help but feel like a formless blob, trying it's best to get a shape, but can't escape from the fact that it's formless, if that makes any sense xD
Is there anyone out there who has experienced the same thing? What did you do?  |