[Kaprese408]

Thank you all for da replies. I have been working a lot about turning my life around. I have not always been this low...i just ended hitting "bottom" in sep and oct. I came back home and took a break from school to put things back into perspective. Everyone here at this forum is helping me do that.

I agree with you freelancer. I have slowly begun to see how my reality has been influenced by my perception of it. I am working on being more real with reality and myself, than living in extremes.

I am still having a tough time seeing my strengths...but i am looking out for them and trying to grab onto them when something surfaces...for a start i am determined and devoted to changing my life around. I am working on myself and learning not to label myself, but try to phrase things in a positive so i can start working on solutions...

I have been reading "feeling good" by David Burns and am really liking it. At times i feel like i might not be "that bad" since im not in a constant depressive state.

I have decided that when i go back to my school city (i moved away from home to san diego from the Bay area) i am going to go back with a new mindset. That i just moved to Diego for the first time and that i will be exploring a new city. Time to meet new friends, experience a brand new city, and take on the perspective that a new city means new opportunities to work on a new perception.

This will help me let go of the "past" year experience i had in that same city (which was not very productive). With this new approach i can hope to gain some empowerment to create a new life for myself...a more positive life. Most importantly let go of all the negatives (doubts, experiences, decisions, thoughts, lack of confidence, etc) that i felt before i came back home and that really didnt help my self esteem at all.

The only "old" thing from my previous life would be my current roommates who i have been living with for 2 months now. They have seen some of the effects of my low self esteem. it would be nice to move in with brand new people...BUT i cannot let go of my new place. I love it sooo much and its everything i wanted from a house close to campus.

ANY suggesstions???? Have any of you all moved to a brand new city? If so what actions did you take to have a successful transition when it came to meeting people, making friends, learning about the city, getting around, etc.

I love this site and all of u...Thankx

Kaprese