At the moment I don't have a job. I'm a single stay at home mom living with my parents. Right now my parents arn't making me get a job because they know how important it means to me to be with my son. In my own opinion I belive if it is possible a parent should take the responsibility to raise their own child. I don't want to have to put him in daycare and have a total stranger raise him. Time goes by way to fast. Soon he will be in school and he'll want to hang out with his friends not Mommy.
I do feel like my past was a complete waste. I was too shy and quiet. I was too afraid to experience anything. That's why now I don't have any talents. I was too afraid to try anything. I dropped out of school when I was 15. Moved in with my boyfriend when I was 16 and wasted the next 7 years of my life with him. He was controlling and abusive, but I do thank him for my wonderful son.
I wish I could change the past, but I know that is impossible. I do not like myself. I want to improve myself, but I find it hard considering the time I have to myself is either when my son takes a nap or after he goes to bed. Usually by that time I'm ready for bed to.
I want to be somebody. I want to have a purpose. I know part of my purpose is to be a Mom, but there has to be more. I just don't know what.