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Originally Posted by Honeywith4bees  I wonder how the people you were talking and socializing with felt about their encounters with you. I know that sometimes when people are drinking they think that they are being clever and witty and the life of the party when in reality they are being dull, repetitive and hard to understand.
I don't personally think that smoking pot, in a non-extreme way, is any worse than drinking alcohol or eating sugar or any of the other less than useful things that we tend to do to comfort ourselves. But I also think that there are much better and healthier ways to acheive the same outcome. Good luck! |
I just don't think that was the case. I was fully concious, mentally present, I could still read their bodylanguage, eye contact, .etc. I know rapport when I see it and well, I don't think marijuana alters your perception to that degree.
Now how I have always solved personal problems is by first identifying the issue then taking steps to eliminate it methodically.
This is why this problem bothers me so much. I can't think of for the life of me what is inhibiting me. I only know it's negative, and I want it gone. I truly, until very recently, thought I was "done" working on my confidence. I thought that because I had taken a rational step back and looked at myself and saw every issue I could identify and one by one taken it out.
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Element X that is differentiating HighMe and SoberMe, I just don't know what it is.
rbhambha, I don't believe that is my problem here. I think I have very high self esteem and don't see myself as not worthy. In fact come to think of it a large amount of what I do not say, but think, I keep to myself for fear of offending someone or making someone uncomfortable or nervous. Though those things I keep to myself really, thought about level-headed, are nothing to bat an eye at and I shouldn't be afraid to say them.
Tigerlilly, I do not want to rely on it, and that is why I, like you suggested, want to use it purely as a stepping stone to real happiness. I am just having a hard time knowing how to approach this one.