 Pissed and Paranoid. Help.
I am extremely messed up. I am in the 11th grade and am paranoid about when I get out of high school what will happen. I keep thinking that I will end up alone on the street collecting cans. My grades have sucked in school and continue to suck. I have no friends.
If I commit to doing good then it’s only a matter of time before I think this is a waste of life to be immersed into a paper with writing or a pen with ink. People make me angry therefore I am an angry person.
Little things like a girl flipping her hair to much will irritate me. I notice these things. I notice every detail even when I am sitting there seemingly zoned out I am noticing someone’s leg moving out of the corner of my eye.
Also my family makes me angry. My dad just walking around in his dumb slippers can make me pissed. I think this is mostly because I am constantly paranoid about what will happen when I finish high school.
There is no way I’m working with people at a star bucks smiling my fake ass of all day for bum paychecks. That’s where the collecting cans part comes in.
Anyway if anybody could spare a word as to what to do with myself that would be great. I’m not seeing a counselor.
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