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Originally Posted by joyjoy  I just really wanna be nice to him and make him feel beloved this life. |
That does not appear to be true at all, joyjoy. All of your posts are all about indulging your own desires with absolutely no regard for his. You are not talking about loving this guy, you are talking about getting what you want, and that's all. If you think you want to be nice to him, it's only so you can "get" him. You cannot "have" him -- you cannot "have" anyone! You're not creating a space of freedom for him or for yourself. What kind of love is that? None at all.
If you are really willing to be a loving person, then accept what he has said to you. Give him freedom from your suffocating desires. Give yourself freedom to live your life either by yourself or with someone who freely chooses to be with you. This man is choosing something else, and you can't force him to choose you. You are imprisoning him and yourself. Surrender.
You might be wise to focus all of this wild energy on creating a life you love YOURSELF and forget about pinning all your hopes for happiness, satisfaction and fulfillment on another person. Cut that out, and figure out a way to fall in love with your own life.