It's just, he probably spent about 100,000 kr on me in these three years, bringing me everywhere inside China, many different countries in Europe, buying me all the jewrary, paying me for one year in Sweden, buying me lapto.... He is not that rich. He still has a lot of student loan from traving the world. However, thats how he showed his love.
Because of him, I experienced Europe by myself, instead of reading from internet back in China. I grow up so quickly in Sweden. I got my Master from Sweden and now I got a job in a Danish publishing company and finally, time for me to earn some money. I cannot imagine to spend money to some other people than him. I really want to pay his love back.
He loved me, cultivated me from a girl to a mature and independent woman, esp. after this breaking up. I learned hell a lot from this.
Also because he told me he still likes me very very much, before I went back from his working place to Sweden. When i asked him in the airport, is there any chance i can win your heart back in future? He did not answer. Then he said, if you want to win my heart back, you should not ask me about it, or you should not even talk about it in front of me. What will happen in future, nobody knows. All his words, really disturbs me so much, on the other hand, gives me a bit hope.
I just really wanna be nice to him and make him feel beloved this life. I just really, really cannot imagine meeting the others.
Thus, I really wish i can get any advices or help from here. I stopped pushing and contacting him already now. I just dunno what i should do next.
I planned on losing weight and studying Swedish/Danish for now. However, there are people say that it will be tooo late if i pick up contact with him in half a year.
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