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joyjoy · 10-22-2007, 07:30 AM

Thanks very much for your reply.
Yes.
Thats what iam thinking now.
I used to believe that I am a very ... how to say, a girl who is good in everything when i was in China. I went to school at 4 year old, and always can go to the best middle school or university in Chinese competition system. I started teaching in a university in Shanghai at 21. Even when i study in Sweden, I got a straight A in my school.
My point is, I am always a girl with proud.
However, I met him.
He has been travelling to 38 countries, and he worked for the Danish goverment, and even had a title. Besides, his looking, exactly the kind that i can ever dream about. He may not be the hot kind in Western culture, but he is genlt, nice, and satisfies all my dreams.
I feel, he is so much better than me, and that moment i lost all my pround, i think i can by no means compare with him. Thats why i start to feel i cannot deserve such an excellent guy, and feel bad about myself, and then started all the test and pushing to see how much he loves me.

He loved me that much that sometimes, when i work up in the morning, the room is full of notes, even in my pocket, or in the fridger, or on the hangers of the closes. He writes, that You are my reason to live. You are my destiny. I seach the whole world looking for you.
Even though I nagged him that much, he always hugged me and cried and told me that *its true love that drives us crazy. and we are doomed to be together.*
I was dizzyed by his strong love.
I started to behave more and more pushy and childish and ... until the ending today..

10-22-2007, 07:30 AM	#20 (permalink)
joyjoy Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 33	Hi, Jim, Mmeintentional, Pim... Thanks very much for your reply. Yes. Thats what iam thinking now. I used to believe that I am a very ... how to say, a girl who is good in everything when i was in China. I went to school at 4 year old, and always can go to the best middle school or university in Chinese competition system. I started teaching in a university in Shanghai at 21. Even when i study in Sweden, I got a straight A in my school. My point is, I am always a girl with proud. However, I met him. He has been travelling to 38 countries, and he worked for the Danish goverment, and even had a title. Besides, his looking, exactly the kind that i can ever dream about. He may not be the hot kind in Western culture, but he is genlt, nice, and satisfies all my dreams. I feel, he is so much better than me, and that moment i lost all my pround, i think i can by no means compare with him. Thats why i start to feel i cannot deserve such an excellent guy, and feel bad about myself, and then started all the test and pushing to see how much he loves me. He loved me that much that sometimes, when i work up in the morning, the room is full of notes, even in my pocket, or in the fridger, or on the hangers of the closes. He writes, that You are my reason to live. You are my destiny. I seach the whole world looking for you. Even though I nagged him that much, he always hugged me and cried and told me that its true love that drives us crazy. and we are doomed to be together. I was dizzyed by his strong love. I started to behave more and more pushy and childish and ... until the ending today..