Hi Joy,
Sorry to hear your story. I've been there, done that have the scars to proove it. Let the guy go, as he has already let you go. I know it's sad and you feel like you can't go on with you life etc. But he will never have respect for you if you keep hounding him.
I would say do not contact him ever.... even if he contacts you.It's the end.
Just like the other comments it does sound like you have BPDO (though I'm not Dr.) My sister has the same but it's not the end of the world.
Trust me it's not worth cracking up over as it will take many years to recover if you do crack.
I'm glad to hear that your getting help and be good to yourself.
I would also get out every single day for a walk, write your feelings and talk to people, even if have to repeat yourself over and over.
Don't blame culture etc. because you would of broken up a long time ago... Just take responsibility (not saying it's your fault) and thing will be very easy thereafter.
{{{{{{{Big hugs to you}}}}}}}
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