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Diox · 10-21-2007, 08:18 AM

Hi all, I'm in my last year of high school right now. I've been working diligently on self improvement, especially in the realm of self-confidence ever since the 7th grade. I'll tell you I have come a very long way and I am very happy. Put it this way, I'm the only one in the school it seems who was actually looking forward to our public speaking classes. On a scale of 1-10, 1 being social anxiety, 5 being average, 10 being celebrity type confidence, I'm about a 8. Really it's not that I can't talk a lot, I just don't iniate much.

Anyway, I've never been a social person, over the summer, I very succesfully used hypnosis to help me with this problem and yesterday I decided to go to my first school football game ever.

I've never used any sort of mind altering substance but with few close friends. I decided to use marijuana for the game because a)in case it was terrible like my antisocial self worried, I could hide behind it... and b)wanted to see what the social benefits were.

Well let me tell you it was great. I had 10 level confidence. I could say what I thought, I was more charismatic, I felt a better connection with people as often I am unintentionally cold.

This is what I've been striving for all my life. My confidence I have now is great, I'm very happy, but it seems like a front (a strong one though), where as last night, under the influence, it seemed real, because I actually YEARNED to socialize and connect with people.

I do not use marijuana often and I don't wish to start, but the experience was so amazing, really opened my eyes to where I could be. I want to be that confident again! Forever!

How can I reach this point, this point beyond points. Like I said before, I CAN talk to people just fine, no matter how large the crowd is, but I just don't connect with them. I don't let the me shine through.

10-21-2007, 08:18 AM	#1 (permalink)
Diox Junior Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 3	I used pot to show myself a world of confidence Hi all, I'm in my last year of high school right now. I've been working diligently on self improvement, especially in the realm of self-confidence ever since the 7th grade. I'll tell you I have come a very long way and I am very happy. Put it this way, I'm the only one in the school it seems who was actually looking forward to our public speaking classes. On a scale of 1-10, 1 being social anxiety, 5 being average, 10 being celebrity type confidence, I'm about a 8. Really it's not that I can't talk a lot, I just don't iniate much. Anyway, I've never been a social person, over the summer, I very succesfully used hypnosis to help me with this problem and yesterday I decided to go to my first school football game ever. I've never used any sort of mind altering substance but with few close friends. I decided to use marijuana for the game because a)in case it was terrible like my antisocial self worried, I could hide behind it... and b)wanted to see what the social benefits were. Well let me tell you it was great. I had 10 level confidence. I could say what I thought, I was more charismatic, I felt a better connection with people as often I am unintentionally cold. This is what I've been striving for all my life. My confidence I have now is great, I'm very happy, but it seems like a front (a strong one though), where as last night, under the influence, it seemed real, because I actually YEARNED to socialize and connect with people. I do not use marijuana often and I don't wish to start, but the experience was so amazing, really opened my eyes to where I could be. I want to be that confident again! Forever! How can I reach this point, this point beyond points. Like I said before, I CAN talk to people just fine, no matter how large the crowd is, but I just don't connect with them. I don't let the me shine through.