Originally Posted by cdn2wheeler
If the pattern of "being wrong" is continual, that can - and does - set up a predisposition of, "I'm always wrong, therefore I'll just keep my mouth shut and not offer my opinion/advice."
That's the idea I kept getting, but I knew always I could not and would not remain silent. I don't want to always be silent because I feel oneday some decision or action will be taken which I am against, and I want to speak out and not let it all walk over me.
I see that saying 'I'm wrong' can be extremely dangerous. Believing myself to be wrong can lead to this emotional response I loathe, and I think what I say I equate with myself. My speech = me, therefore if my speech/words are wrong... I am wrong. I believe I am all I create, that these words are me, those actions are me. Consciously and intellectually I know that's not true, but it is what I really believe deep down.
I liked the idea of acknowledging and releasing negative emotions, Angela. That could work for me. But if I wanted to really root out this problem properly, I have to change the core belief of 'I am what I create'.
I remember Eckhart Tolle mentioning how the ego loves to latch onto things like our jobs, our houses, our children, etc. and make them us. We are our jobs, houses and children... which sounds actually kind of bizarre when you read it out loud. It latches onto these things because it doesn't want to face death/annihilation and thinks it can hide and define itself in these creations. Perhaps a lot of our limiting beliefs are the ego's beliefs or rules, and ultimately it's system of survival. So breaking these rules and dissolving these beliefs would perhaps destroy the ego? And of course the ego's worst nightmare is destruction of self, and thus it fights nail and tooth to stop our efforts to destroy it.
Hmmm... I just realized this right now. This is like online journaling but in front of everyone else, lol.
Anyways, thanks again Tigerlilly
for all the advice and useful thoughts