Don't be too hard on yourself for slipping up a little. See what you can learn from the experience, notice the thinking and behavior patterns that don't work, and move forward from here. Almost all of us slip up from time to time; the bigger measurement of our success is whether or not we choose to pick ourselves up and keep walking down the path after we've stumbled.
Go back to getting up early - not because you "should," but because it makes you feel better about yourself. Get the exercise you crave. If the weather is lousy, you might consider finding a way to exercise inside. (We've got an indoor rock climbing gym nearby, and climbing sure works your whole body!) If it really is walking you prefer, experiment with dressing in layers. You might start out with a hat, coat, scarf, and mittens, but plan on taking off the hat and scarf as soon as you feel warm, for instance.
I am also someone who prefers to do things my way, on my own terms, and for my own reasons. I think it's important to be who I am, and not try to change myself to be "more loveable." Trying to change because someone else thinks I should only makes me miserable, so I don't (anymore).
The friendships that I value most are with people that appreciate me for who I am. These people do not try to get me to change in some way, although they support my efforts to grow on my own. They rarely offer advice unless it's clear that I want it. (I might ask, "What do you think?" for instance.) In particular, my husband will not tell me when he thinks I'm wrong unless I ask. He recognizes the value in me figuring things out for myself.
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