Please help! I have been struggling with this decision for about a year now, and really need to define this to stop feeling divided...
I am male, 27 and have been in a relationship for 3 years now.
On the one hand, I have no doubt she is the woman I would chose to be married and to have children with. I love her very much, and we get along with each other very well. She is my 2nd serious relationship but I had many other not so serious, so I knew many women and I am pretty sure when I say that she means that much to me.
On the other hand, I feel a big need to enjoy my youth. I mean going out with my friends, traveling with them, partying (I love to party!), even going out and having sex with other women. I just feel I have not lived everything I should have lived and that this is the best age to do this. I am afraid of being 40 years old and married, looking back and saying "Oh, why didn't I do this and that while it was time to?"
I also feel that if I continue this relationship it will go on until we get married (probably in 2 to 4 years from now), and will feel I have missed my "best time". But if I leave her, only god knows if I will be able to go back to her after my "party time". At the same time I am conscious that after some time being single I will get tired of that and will feel the need to engage into a serious relationship again, probably regretting to have left her in the first place.
I have been suffering a lot from this "self-division" because it is causing me not to be 100% engaged in my relationship and at the same time not respecting my desires. What I need most now is just to feel inner piece regarding these choices...
Your advice or new perspectives will help me a lot! Thanks for having the patience to read all that!
Peace,
Gooboy