Just a couple of things I got from your post;
1) Your facts are NOT actual facts, they are your perception of your current situation. Make this clear to yourself, a fact is not something you can change but a perception can be easily changed. A quick example;
I have social anxiety at times being around people
Could be;
My social skills aren't top notch yet but I'm working on improving this (if you realize that you'r social skills aren't top notch and you can improve them than you already took the first step towards improvement)
2) You'r post 'reeks' of negativity, this is not a good starting point in life and it most likely aided you in getting to this point. I can feel there's positivity under the surface though, so its not completely hopeless.
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8. I don't know what will help me start enjoying life. I just want to enjoy life.
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Somebody once said; You can't chase happiness, you can only BE happy. If you try to enjoy life than it will always elude you, just be happy. Yeah I know vague and probably not helpfull but there's no other way to explain it.
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I have no idea what my interests are.
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Neither do I but I'm having the time of my life and building many different skills at the same time. My main focus in life is growth and expansion of my personality and this is fun for pretty much everyone. I'll figure out my interests while I'm on the way towards a great life.
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I have low self esteem at times (at times its very bad).
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No you don't, you just cover it up at times. True self esteem is always with you.
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10. That is what i really want from life... to find people i connect with and can form a strong friendship with.
11. I also want to work on my social skills to the extreme... so i can work toward being able to talk to anyone... make good conversation with anyone.
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Ah so thats your interest ! Don't let fears/insecurity's and other such crap stop you. I know it ain't easy just take small steps at a time.
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13. So far looking back into my past it all seems like one big blur.
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Life ain't lived in the past.
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15. I feel alone at times. I have not much of a support system. I can't be honest with people i want to be honest with because they just won't understand.
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GREAT !
Gives you something to work on.
Oh and have your try'd to be honest with people? They might suprise you ! (and there's really nothing to lose excepth maybe a facade you've been holding up for yourself and the world)
What I noticed in my life is that motion towards a positive and difficult goal will result in feeling good about yourself and ultimately happiness. This might be social skills or being more positive in general or a spiritual journey or whatever. Just keep moving forward no matter what.
Ps. I come from a similar place as you so I know how it feels. Don't worry, keep improving and moving forward than you'll be fine.
Ps. Damn this post turned out longer then expected lol